Friday, November 24, 2006

I saw it.

Yes, all of you who posted to me or e-mailed me or tried to call me, I got it. I just don't have much to say. Hence, my updates have become few and far between. I'm not ignoring you; don't think that at all. I just have no reply.

Updates:

There was a delay in the loan application process that required a 30-wait period. Then they will resubmit. We do not know yet whether or not we have one.

We house-sat for my aunt and uncle this week. It was great fun...until we had to come back here. It only drives home how futile it all feels.

We have been told to get out Jan. 1.

My father's daytime help was murdered in New Orleans East in her FEMA trailer. He really liked her...she was a new hire who was happy working for him, and who was about to earn her own set of keys and alarm code when her nephew gunned her down over a senseless family argument. Dad wanted to attend her funeral but decided that under the circumstances (her friend and her brother were also murdered by the guy) he shouldn't. Who knows what the services would be like. But then, we still haven't seen any arrangements in the paper. They caught the guy, though. Now, in addition, he is overworked again. But our friend Chris works for him after school, and he's been a huge help to him. No new help has been hired.

I went to the gastroenterologist and was formally diagnosed with both IBS and Reflux. I am on Nexium and will be on Zelnorm. I can no longer take Advil products. I had to have an abdominal ultrasound to rule out gallstones and a hiatal hernia, plus bloodwork to rule out thyroid trouble. I have not heard back about either test. Hopefully, that is good. However, she wants me to have a colonoscopy in January. We'll see about that.

I am tired of waiting. I am always waiting on someone or something. I do not want to do this any more. I want some instant gratification for once. I wish carpe diem was possibly in Post-Katrina New Orleans.

I am so tired.

11 comments:

misti said...

Hey there! I'm glad to see you posted! I too have reflux and have to stay away from Advil. Did they make you swallow the barium to determine about an ulcer? I had to do that in HS...it was nasty!

Crossing fingers for the loan. *hugs*

Anonymous said...

I realize you probably have a principled objection to this, but maybe you should move out of New Orleans - maybe somewhere you can find a rental for less than 3K?

misti said...

Hey, anonymous, maybe you should move out of the place you've lived your entire life and leave your only support system when you are depressed and going through incredibly hard times. Sure, sounds like an easy feat to do, but maybe step in her shoes for a bit and actually feel it for awhile...then impose your "anonymous" viewpoints.

Mae said...

Misti, Thank you.

Anonymous, you must be from somewhere else. You would never understand.

Post a name. Prove me wrong. And if I don't know you, then don't come back to my site. I have enough negativity in my life.

New Orleans forever!!!!

Mae said...

And I almost forgot...rents ARE under $3K. But a mortgage on a modest home is the same as a rent for a crappy apartment. And, I think anyone would agree: I need to be where my family is. I lost everything. I don't need to lose any more. And now I am done with you.

Danger Devon said...

A, I have IBS and it is uncomfortable as hell-I cannot say anything nice about colonoscopies either (a close friend has Crohn's disease and has one every 6 months...just hum and think of Dave Grohl is my only advice).=)

To Anonymous, I lived in NOLA for 3 years and even I get it. I am very proud of that fact. Moving BACK to my HOME state (IN) was a decision that aided my recovery from depression and continuous suicidal thoughts because my family is here. DUH!! This is also why my hubbie to be and I are staying!!

Three, stay strong A! Lots of people, in NOLA and out, know that you rock!! We love you!

anne in MD said...

Actually, anonymous is me, Anne in Maryland. I just made a mistake and didn't say it was me. I don't know misti and I don't know danger devon, so I don't really care what they think, but I know A and she knows me.

I really hope you aren't actually done with me, but I stand by what I posted.

Mae said...

Anne, thanks for admitting that. But, like you, I don't want to waste money on rent any more. I want something to show for my money. No, I'm not done with you, but I have a lot of negative things going on...health-wise, co-worker-wise, school-wise, money-wise, and family-wise, and then to have that posted like that really set me off.

Misti said...

Hi Anne, no offense taken. It just tiffed me to see Aimee put down like that and with an anon posting it made it even worse. If you know her and you two can figure how each others feelings, that's great, it's none of my business.

Mae said...

Yup. We're real-life friends from college. We attended each others' weddings. She moved away, and we saw each other fairly recently. It's fine.

anne in md said...

It wasn't supposed to be a put down. I know there's a lot going on and perhaps moving hadn't yet been considered. I know southern Louisiana people don't like to do it. I wouldn't have suggested it if I hadn't thought a change of scenery and a fresh start would help. I've also recently bought in a highly competative real estate market and the chances of 1) getting stuck with something you hate or 2) paying too much are very real. To be honest, I probably should have remained a renter for a little while longer. We'll be lucky to break even on the crap shack we're in now. But on the up side, I hear the market will bottom out next summer.